Recently I’ve been asked that quite a lot. “Will I ever see there real you?”
So I ponder once more. Who am I then? Feels like all the time we’re embarking in some healing journey we might wake up and go “aha!” found it, that was me all along that I forgot to be… well who IS that one? The baby that was born innocent? Free of fear and sadness, free of hurt?
Really at the heart of us all, the one who observes, is of course pure consciousness … the path of all spiritual teachings is to clear all the karma, the layers of ego or false personalities to realise that we are all life force, aka God…. whatever that might mean to you, can you conceive that there is a “still” and peaceful part of us all? When you are “in the flow” whether through love-making, making a cake, skiing or driving fast down a country lane, we all feel alive and fully present, and blissfully clear of our mind chatter.. THAT is who I am…and who YOU are!
So who is THAT?!
Part of the multiverse ???
I’ve often had conflicts about this, feeling that if I’m NOT in this still point, or “void”, are my thoughts then fake? I’ve been to the silence so often, so why do I come back!! Am I an imposter? I do feel that we have been created as slices of the ultimate God-self for that one to experience everything, so are we meant to remain this silent ultimate self?
To pop back into source from whence we came?
No. I don’t think so. We are ever evolving, and coming INTO a space of being, but that GOD doesn’t’ want stillness, after all, we came into being to experience. So really I am ALL of me. The part that gets angry (yes, i’m getting shown i really can do anger just at the mo!), and the part of me that cries, the part of me that talks in many other languages that are beyond my human comprehension just now… there is no “me” and “not-me” they are all versions of me at different frequencies.. and the further we go along the further we access them all, and can bring them together, or at least understand which part of ourself is coming through.
I urge you, allow yourself to be ALL that you are.. the more we resist our feeling self, thinking that to be imperfect, the more we tell ourselves that we are not allowed to feel…
So many of my releases recently have been about saying sorry to myself for all the times I’ve disrespected myself trying to appease those around me, for fear of rejection! Not allowing my true feelings in case I offended someone else! What a game huh? Pissing myself off, treating myself like i’d treat no-other, then wondering why I feel so de-motivated!… So… here I start once again, stronger, and more centred, with an aim of self-love, ever more self-respect and imploring you to do the same
Whatever your label, get rid of them, and know you are beautiful. Know that you are an evolving being that is waking out of an epic slumber of many lives suppressed by the matrix, who is undoing years of karma that you have taken on from your families, to clear and heal, and we are taking humanity to a new era, where love is prevailing, and we will be like the “Air-bender” (film I watched last night!).. one who manifests, alchemists, creator beings, who can create the loving life we all crave for!